It's Time To Wake Up

This post is not going to be pleasant for both me and you. But if you're my friend, and you think that I'm acting weird someday soon, maybe you should try read this to understand. Just know that I'm sorry that you had to say goodbye to the previous me this way.
I would say that everyday from January to April this year 2015 my life had been adventurous and really fun. I could tell you that this was the life that i dream of when I was a kid. A dream where I can be free to go to any trip I wanted, eat any food I've wanted to taste, and spend time with my friends for as long as I wanted. Indeed, this dream had been fulfilled. I went to so much trip everywhere, and was planning to continue this until like, forever. But today, 12 May 2015, I woke up from this dream.

Fairy tale is true. But it will only happen to you in a selected few moments in your life. For me, it did happen, my fairy tale. But, i was too greedy and used up all the precious moments given to me. I guess my fairy tale is over by now.

Nobody blames me for all the money spent in this year. I can't even calculate how much is that money. But now as i think hard, why on earth did I live and eat like a rich spoiled kid, when I'm not even one. I'm just a village boy.

When reality strikes in, it's cruel. I realized it now, it's not too late, but I had to cut out my leisure activities from now on. If you ask me, I don't have plans for my future. In fact, I don't even know if I will survive this wave.

21 years old. I'm old enough to understand that I can never be the man I dream of, nor can I have the leisure to hang out with my friends anymore. 

To my friends, I'm sorry but this is my life. Everything up to now had been a dream for me, and it's not supposed to be real. We live in a different world. No more breakfast with bread and butter, no more lunch and no more dinner (except for Wednesday, don't ask why). Friday and saturday too, no more Citysquare for me.